I will die alone. I've never been great in the relationship department. I know part of it is because I'm terrible at opening up and letting men in. But the few times I've done that, I've always gotten hurt.
Multiple men this year have told me what a great person I am and are obviously attracted to me, but they still would never date me. It's a problem I've had my entire life. It doesn't seem to be going away. I still don't understand. What don't I have? What am I missing? Why am I always secret sex? (That's a SATC thing, okay) seriously though. What am I missing that makes it so men don't feel a romantic connection with me. I do not and will never understand. I've lowered my standards (not in an official way, but I've become more attracted to men who don't fit my younger ideal), I've tried online dating, and I've tried meeting men in real life. It just doesn't seem to happen for me.
That's fine. I'll die alone.
PS I should've sued for sexual harassment, gotten lots of money, and gone on to travel for a few years. He would've deserved it, no? What's a ruined career, anyway?