I am about to confess to you all (all 30 of you who still read this) my most secret shame....
I recently joined an online dating website.
OH MY GOSH. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.
I hate the idea of looking for a romantic attachment because I very much like saying I'm okay on my own, which I totally am. I don't like the idea that I need to find someone else. I'M ENOUGH, DAMMIT. But I'm kind of lonely. And I'd like to be touched occasionally. Just occasionally though.
I was going to link to my profile, but I might die of embarrassment then. THIS IS THE SECOND MOST EMBARRASSING THING THAT'S HAPPENED TO ME THIS NEW YEAR. The first, I can't repeat in a public forum. Let's just say, I blushed for 3 hours because of it. I can't eat because of it. I've lost 14-15 pounds since Friday the 28th because of it. IT WAS THE WORST.
So I'll probably be documenting some aspects of dates and crazy messages. I'm only writing about this right now because I got my favorite message ever. I'll copypasta it later. I'm too lazy.
Yeah. I met a really funny/cute guy. We shall call him "Smith." But he's short. I like him in spite of it. (And you all should know what a big deal that is.) Maybe he'll get lifts in his shoes....
My problem with these dates is I think it's all up to the date to impress me and not the other way around. I mean, I'm dynamic just being who I am. They have to show me they deserve a second date. Hmm probably the wrong way to go about it. And what are you supposed to do/talk about on a second date anyway? I have one tonight with Smith.... I don't even know. ack.
THIS MAKES ME SO UNCOMFORTABLE.